6.21.2010

fireworks and wishes



Kung totoo na sa bawat wish sa ilalim ng blasting fireworks ,magkakatotoo ang lahat ng hiling ng isang tao, hindi sana ganito ka hirap ang lahat ng ito. Sana instant cure ang firecrakers sa bawat wish. Sana ganun kadali. Pero hindi eh.

6.20.2010

hard times

This is the reason why as much as possible, I try to avoid being here. Sabi nga nila, sa dinamidami ng choices ko bakit I prefer a more complicated and difficult path? I know I have an answer to this, a concrete and valid answer. One that convinced me for the longest time that I am right. I always think I am right but often I doubt my line of thinking. Still, every waking hour of my life feeling ko tama ako.

Oprah once said, "If it doesn't feel right, then it is not right". But what if feeling is not enough? What if feeling requires thinking? What if feeling and thinking pulls you to different directions? Who would prevail? Logic that dictates the society of what is right and wrong or your feeling that deviates from logic?

At the end I realized, I am a logical person. One who would rather choose to do what I think is right rather than let my feelings prevail. "I am a mind over heart person" I say to myself though my feeling tells me something else.

This is one of those days. I should be an expert on this, been through this many times before but it never seems to get easier every time I have to decide.